The Aftermath

I woke up to fairly dark skies but there was no rain. The weather seems good. There are no classes until tomorrow. Relief and rescue operations continue. There are still people whose houses are submerged in water. Live feed from different news channels are on broadcast since Saturday. All social networks are updating the latest and the relief centers where people can donate and do volunteer work.

This is one great thing about the Filipinos. We mobilize in times of disaster. I want to do my share. I am worried, scared and I feel helpless. But I couldn't let these feelings stay long. I need to move. I don't have much money but we did donate a few things yesterday. I felt though they aren't much. I still feel I need to do something to help.

I am doing my own through prayers and broadcasting relevant links and announcements. I plan to go out tomorrow and see what else we can do. We just might volunteer to pack things at Sagip Kapamilya or any volunteer centers. I'll check our church.

While the metropolis is in shambles I am in my little abode. I stopped feeling helpless and tried to do the usual things I do inside the house. I don't want to feel down because of all the activities going on and I'm just in the house monitoring everything through the computer and television. I am helping in my little way and I will still help.

I will go about doing the things I set to do while trying to help one way or another the victims of this biatch of a storm, Ondoy.

I Just Feel Great Today!

I just feel great today! Just saying. :D

Whew...Suddenly I Missed My Mom

For some reason...suddenly I missed my mom. I just missed her. Time flies so fast. It's like it was just yesterday when I was a little girl my mom takes care of. My mom is there for me whenever I need her.

I don't know why but this always enters my mind. I remember I was standing on our wooden chair, maybe I was four, maybe five. My mom is fixing my shirt and was talking to me about whatever. I can't remember. I just know "Top of the World" by the Carpenters was on the background. My mom was wearing a long sleeves polo with red stripes, folded up to near her elbow. That particular scene always registers on my mind and it never fails to make me nostalgic.

I love my mom so much. I miss her. I want to be near her now. We are oceans apart. I wish I could be with her soon. I don't know what made me say this but I would really love to be with my mom and take care of her...take care of them, my mom and my father. I love them to bits!

This is Insane!

I couldn't think of any appropriate title but that. What I am feeling is insane. I mourn for The King of Pop. I am really sad. I can't stop watching his videos and rereading articles about him. I am just so affected. It feels like a great part of me was lost too. I feel for him. It's like losing someone and realizing how much you love that someone dearly.

It was good to know that a friend also feel the same way. And maybe millions around the world. Geez. I never felt so strongly for any celebrity as I feel for Michael Jackson. His death made him larger than when he was living. He is the greatest entertainer this world has produced. Why die at such an early age? I love him dearly and will continue to love him and keep track of what is happening to his children.

That short speech by his daughter was truly touching. I pray that Michael's children will grow up to be bright, beautiful and happy adults. I love Michael Jackson. I hope he is not dead. His memory lives forever.

The Man in the Mirror

All these talks about Michael Jackson is making me sad. That's true. I found myself looking for one of his songs at YouTube a few months back. And three days ago, he is dead. It didn't immediately sink in. I read all the news, I tuned in to CNN for their features on The King of Pop. Now I am reading reports about sub-stories of his life. The latest of which was Debbie Rowe's declaration that Michael was not the biological father. The children were brought to this world through artificial insemination. Aaargghh.

I feel for the children. I feel for Michael. How many percent of his life has he truly been happy? I can't stop watching his videos. I feel for the man. He was sooooo good at his craft. God knows what really happened to him. I feel for him. Funny, I only have on album of Michael and that was a long time ago. I am not a huge fan but I like most of his songs. But why do I feel like I lost someone dear and close to me? I am affected by his story.

I pray to God to make the lives of his children a lot better than what he has to undergo. I pray for Michael's soul.

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In the meantime, I'm still a stay at home womyn. I have a good prospect and just waiting for the call. I can't wait to work again and earn good money.

I have to hit the gym today. I am starting to feel my Monday blues when I feel everything is unsure and I start getting worried, scared and depressed. I need to shift to a more positive thinking. I pray the gym will do it for me. And a call from my prospective employer.

Thank You, God.

Seeing the Light

I have resolved to make the most of what I have now. It's not a walk in the park but what else is there but the life I have now? I need to make the most of it.

I had fun last Monday. And thank God I read a book which enlightened me, encouraged me. I need to buy that fast.

God gives me signs, good signs. I just have to hang in here while I do what I have to do.

Share the Good Things

I haven't posted for over two weeks. I was busy last week and I loved it! I was with my daughter in her summer activities. I attended gym regularly and I watched a movie, met with my friends.

I have gotten over my husband's inadequacy. Let it be. It takes a situation like what we have now to make him realize the things he should have been doing. I am thankful that we can still do something about what we are undergoing now.

As for my job quest, nothing yet. I am down on my knees praying to God to please give me a job that I have been praying for. I don't want to dwell on it. It will come in the most opportune time.

I will be sharing good things too, however small they are, in this blog. Life is good. I want me and my family to enjoy life. What else is there anyway. Let me take things in stride. Enjoy the ride even if it's a little rough at the moment. This too shall pass.